Realizations

This is my last time I'm leading choir practice with the church congregation before Mass starts.
Why?
I'm resigning next year so I can focus on helping my class I teach, the First Communion class.

I'll be leaving a tattered group of young children, most of them who are still only tweens, to sing at Mass every Sunday when school starts up next Fall. Of course, I'm leaving my siblings behind, they can step up and fill in what I left. But it's kind of difficult, transitioning I think. I'll still have to bring my siblings to the choir practices, still have to attend the Mass the choir sings at. Hold up, I don't have to... I get to.
I suppose that makes all the difference. No one's forcing me to do all of that, I get to do it, and this realization makes transitioning a whole lot more difficult. I spent twelve years of my life in that choir and now I'm just deciding to go away. I did say it was for a bigger cause, didn't I? See, one of the main teachers for the class is taking a break for a year, so the other teachers will definitely need help.

This will probably be my last time singing anything for a solid reason. I'm not in my public school's choir, not in any sort of band. I just.. do my thing. Without this church choir, I'll be lacking so much more.
I guess I'll have to keep up by myself.

I make a lot of realizations while writing on here...